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dorrie's true story lyrics (2002) dorrie's true story | discography | melinda beasi | artists

INVISIBLE

no one can see her
she never meant to build this wall
but it only gets bigger
till she can hardly see herself at all
she is invisible
and all too visible

she knows that she is beautiful
though she cannot quite remember
so she endures, so dutiful
she sees her face and pretends it isn't her
though she's invisible
she's all too visible

and one day there will be one who can truly see
and all the rest proven wrong
and he will kiss her and like sleeping beauty
she'll awaken and be free
from this song that's imprisoned her so long

and so she wastes away
inside the body that betrayed her
perhaps he will arrive today
look beyond the flesh and truly see her
she is invisible
until then she is invisible
and all too visible


I DON'T THINK YOU KNOW (top)

i don't think you know
when you talk to me i hear you
and sometimes what is clear
is not what you meant to say to me

i don't think you know
how i feel when i am near you
and that no one is as dear
as you are every day to me

if you do know
then i don't want to know
you keep talking even though
you know it gives me pain
if you knew how i wish i couldn't feel
and that nothing here was real
would you think i was insane

i don't think you know
that i never could deceive you
and much less ever leave
though it hurts my heart to stay with you

i don't think you know
that i really don't believe you
when you tell me that you love me
i know it isn't the same way with you

if you do know
then please just let me know
i'm never good pretending
that everything's okay
if you knew just how much you mean to me
oh if only you could see
would it make you run away

i don't think you know


THIS ISN'T ME
(top)

monday morning again
i roll out of bed and i scratch my head
i look in the mirror and i don't like what i see
is this really me
this isn't me anymore

a dollar fifty and i'm on my way
i think of all the things that i wanted to say
footloose and fancy free
is this the way i was meant to be
this isn't me anymore

six thirty and i'm home again
i see you lyin' on the couch and i think to myself
oh my god not this again
i remember when you were my friend
and i longed just to hold your hand
this isn't me anymore... this isn't me anymore

and oh i try
but i don't wanna see you cry

we lie in silence as we watch the television
waiting for the other one to be the first one to speak
you look at me- i'm too weak to see that
this isn't you anymore

i walk down to the store
to buy myself something to help me sleep
you want to talk but i'm too weak
oh baby can't you see that this isn't me

and oh, i try
but i don't want to see you cry

you packed your bags today
not much was said as you were on your way
you dried your tears and i hid mine
this isn't us anymore

i locked the door and i went to bed
thoughts of you running through my head
oh i asked you to leave and i don't know why
oh i asked you to leave and i don't know why
oh i asked you to leave and i don't know why
and oh, i try
but i don't wanna see you cry
oh, i try
i'm sorry that i made you cry


I CAN HOLD THE OCEAN (top)

i open my arms wide
to try to hold the ocean
afraid i might go crazy
staring
i want to fly
feel the wind lift me up high
over the ocean

i open my eyes wide
face to face with the ocean
on the ground again
staring
i start to cry
i am so awake and alive
here with the ocean

nothing can hurt me
i am invincible
i can hold the ocean in my arms

i open my heart wide
to wash my soul in the ocean
pray i don't go crazy
staring
just say goodbye
you don't have to tell me why
i will never come down
i can live here forever

no one can hurt me
i am invincible
i can hold the ocean in my arms

 

ANYMORE (top)

he looks at me
without seeing me at all
his eyes closed off
eyelashes guarding his now anonymous life
and i guard mine
can't look him in the eye anymore

we walk down the street
two blocks seem like twenty
like strangers now
he crafts conversation to hide the rest of his life
and i hide mine
he won't know who i am anymore

and i long just to tell him
of this love that i've found
how i float every evening
how i'll never come down
never come down

he looks at me
i'm not seeing him at all
my eyes closed off
eyelashes guarding my now anonymous life
and he's not mine
and i don't care anymore


OBSESSED (top)

i don't play games, except with you
i don't tell lies, except to you
and me a little bit
can't hardly stand to look at you
you take my breath away
and there you are standing right in front of me every damn day
sometimes i hear your voice, and i think its mine
there's a piece of me in your face
and it startles me every time
i don't know what you do at night
and i don't think i want to
but i know what i do- i hang around and wait to run into you

and i hear your voice and i see your face
and oh look i found me in your space
and i don't care how and i don't care when
all i want is to see you again
and i lie in bed and i'm still awake
and i know i've made this huge mistake
but i can't get out i can't leave this place
'cause i know tomorrow i'll see your face again

and i just can't leave you alone
and i don't know how to be alone

and i hope you know what i'm doing here
or i hope you don't, that's not quite clear
and i don't know what you meant to say
but i hope it wasn't meant that way
and i'm sorry if i scared you, dear
but i thought that i might find you here
when you see yourself, tell me can you see
that piece inside your face that's really me?

i don't play games.


SONG FOR A BOY (top)

don't know where i am
or where i'm going
don't know who i am
but i know you

don't know what i see
or what's around me
don't know who i'll be
but i know who'll be with me

'cause its you who can see me
when i can't see myself
and its you who'll reach out your hand
and help me be myself

don't know what to say
or how to say it
i've got this song to play
and its for you

don't know where to go
or how to get there
but somehow i just know
that you'll be there when i show

'cause its you who can see me
when i can't see myself
and its you who'll reach out your hand and help me be myself
you help me be myself

don't know where i am
or where i'm going
don't know who i am
but i know you


ALL OVER AGAIN (top)

i don't know how to get through this day
i keep thinking of you
of your hands, the back of your head
your face in the dark of the bed
and i cry
and i sleep
and start over again

i just can't seem to put this away
i keep waiting for you
for some answer, some sign
of what used to be mine
in the silence
i can't sleep
please let me start over again

i don't know how to go on
and i know that i will, but right now i can't see
how i was so wrong
all i hear is your voice when you said that you loved me

i don't know how we got here today
i keep thinking of you
of your hands, the back of your head
your face in the dark of the bed
and i cry
and i sleep
and start over again
i want to start over again
please let me start over again


SHE WAITS FOR HIM (angel's song) (top)

looking over the edge of time
she saw him standing far below
she thought she could reach him
before he had to go
but she stayed there, gazing down
although she knew that it was wrong
too afraid to look away
she had waited for so long

sometimes she dreams him
his eyes shining in the night
the mirror crashes down
he tells her its all right
his fingertips are soft
she holds them for a while
his warmth is in her breath
her heart is in his smile

one day she thought she heard his voice
but she only heard her own
she thought she saw his eyes
but inside was dark and cold
the wind would touch her cheek that night

and oh- she hopes for him
and oh- she waits for him

looking over the edge of time
he is fading far below
she knows she can't reach him
she knows he has to go
and she can't recall his face
and she cannot hear his song
she turns to walk away
she has waited far too long


GOODBYE (top)

you know i need a place where i can take off my shoes
and how i got here, i'll never know
but now that i'm leaving i have to say
though it wasn't hard to choose
i'll miss it in my way
i'll miss you

and i'll miss that egg sandwich from the corner
and i'll miss the train, i don't know why
and i'll miss those three dollar umbrellas
but now its time to say goodbye
and i'll miss our coffee in the afternoon
i'll miss the way you let me cry
and i'll miss the music in your living room
but now i have to say goodbye

so goodbye sandwich
goodbye umbrella
goodbye train i don't know why
and goodbye coffee
goodbye living room
goodbye all those tears i cried- goodbye

for my love awaits me in the mountains
where the stars light up the sky
and his voice fills my heart with laughter
so now i've got to say goodbye
and the rain, it washes out my anger
and the tears out of my eyes
and the air fills my soul with music
so now its time to say goodbye

and hello mountains
hello laughter
hello light filling the sky
and hello music
hello rain
hello my love- i just have to say goodbye

 

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