Dec 20 2009
Snowstorm Fail & Holiday Mehs
It wouldn’t be quite right to say that I have the Holiday Blues. I don’t feel quite “blue”… closer to “meh.” So I suppose I have the Holiday Mehs. Work is overwhelming right now, to the point where I have had to cancel most of my vacation days over the next two weeks just to get things done, so I’m missing that giddy vacation feeling. Meanwhile, with so much uncertainty in our lives right now, we decided not to have a Christmas tree this year, so it’s easy to forget that the holidays are even happening.
I’m big on Christmas usually, not so much in the Santa “ho ho ho” way and certainly not in a religious way, but there’s a very special kind of joy for me in warm people, beautiful music, and pretty lights that makes me treasure this time of year. Usually. I guess I’m just not feeling it this year and I have this horrible fear that somehow it might be dead for me forever. I hope not. I don’t know. Maybe I expect too much from adult life.
Perhaps more irksome than all of this is that the stress of work and everything else has killed my ability to focus on the work I want to be doing most. The last week has been appallingly unproductive and I fear there’s more of that to come.
In better news, The Blizzard of 2009 barely touched us here in western MA which means little to no snow shoveling! This probably seems like a small blessing, but honestly it feels huge. Thank you, weather!
Let’s hope I can catch some holiday cheer over the next few days. Got any to spare?
Maybe you could get a mini tree or something to make things feel more Christmasy? Sorry things are so stressful for you right now.
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
December 20th, 2009 at 11:10 am
You know, weirdly, I feel like I’m just better off without it. Thank you, though, for the suggestion. :)
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Ren Reply:
December 20th, 2009 at 12:11 pm
Well, there’s always next year. Or maybe we should start a Christmas in July tradition.
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Hang in there and find some way to celebrate. A tree is just a symbol. Make sure to have some downtime with friends and family. Sorry we’re not likely to visit, but we’ll be thinking of you!
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
December 21st, 2009 at 8:16 am
Thank you! I hope you’re having warm and wonderful times with your family! :)
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No, it won’t be dead forever. It’s just the feeling you have for THIS year. I think pretty much everyone has that feeling SOME year. This time it’s you. It will pass. xoxo
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
December 21st, 2009 at 8:16 am
Thanks, mom. I needed to hear that.
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When we are in a situation, it’s always hard to remember it won’t always be like that. There is a reason that the words, “This, too, shall pass” is so famous. It will pass. And when Christmas returns it will be made even better by the fact that you forgot how one year. :) Come here for holiday spirit.
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jansong@livejournal Reply:
December 21st, 2009 at 8:23 am
“are” so famous. I should have proofed.
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Melinda Beasi Reply:
December 21st, 2009 at 8:25 am
Hee! I could have fixed it for you! :D
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